You can do anything you want.

Father quotes Bishop McMullin as saying You can do anything that you want, you just can't do everything.  I want to get in shape more than I want to eat the world.  So I stuck to my Power of 3 rules and only ate one plate of food at India Palace today, and all vegetarian. I could have put less on that plate, granted, but doing one plate instead of 5 is a start.

Beth and I had a conversation about needing to do ETL...so true, but that didn't stop us from eating pizza.  I need help.

Today:
S: 5 hours
W: 139.6
12:00 rice, veggie bhriyani, dal, curry pakora, veggie mix, scone, potato patty.
4:00 pie dough, filling, pizza, salad, 3 rats

Forge Forward with Faith

When I weighed myself this morning, I apparently forgot about the effects of my Sunday binge, and thought that I'd weighed 138.8 yesterday, and that somehow I'd gone up.  I was thinking about going back to bed instead of doing essentrics and studying, but I know what I need to do, and I'm trying to be better about doing it, so I decided to stick to the plan (sort of...my thesis hours are not as easy to stick to as eating better and exercising are) and do essentrics anyway.  Then I realized that I have lost 2-3 pounds since yesterday.  I just need to keep forging forward with faith, whether I can see the distant scene or not.  I struggle with wanting to know the end from the beginning, and just need to take it a step at a time, moving forward, trusting that it will all work out, even though I can't see how. (Very applicable to relationships, jobs, thesis, everything.)


Today:
S: 6.5
W: 141.4
E: essentrics l/b
7:30 bite of beans, a few grapes
12:15 spring mix, onions, mushrooms, cilantro, chili, banana
2:00 piece of pumpkin cream pie
4:30 chips and hummus
11:30 orange juice

Rededication.

The Boise temple was rededicated yesterday. Mother shared some thoughts from the dedication, one of which was Sister Brinkerhoff (the temple matron?) encouraging us to rededicate ourselves.  I read that after I had already decided to get up early enough to go running and do essentrics.

I am not living up to my privileges when I abuse my body through over-eating and lack of exercise.   I am rededicating myself to taking good care of this amazing gift my Heavenly Father has given me. 

Here are my new power of three rules:

1) Eat to Live as much as possible

2) 1 plate

3) 1 or none on desserts (none of this 20 cookie binge!)

Today:

S: 6 hours

W: 144.6

E: 20 + minute walk/run, essentrics a/a
8:00 banana
12:00 banana
1:30 3 rats
3:40 banana, 1 rat, chips and salsa

Still sick.

Gross!  I hate being sick.  I was feeling okay, but I think eating cereal this morning was not a good idea.  And my cough is still there, albeit much weaker than before! :)

And I binged tonight, with no apparent provocation.  Am I heart sick?   What am I stressing about?  What can I do to let myself heal?

Today:
S: 6 hours
W: 138.8
10:15 banana, bowl of granola with almond milk
4:00 chips, hummus, mushrooms, Lindt balls, cookie dough, cookies, lots of cookies
6:00 ham, funeral potatoes, bean salad, salad

Recovering.

I've been sick for the last couple of weeks, but I think I'm getting better.  I think my voice sounded almost normal today!
And I'm recovering from yesterday's binge.  I was surprised that I didn't gain more weight...actually went down in spite of my craziness! "Little" blessings.

Today:
S: 9 hours
W: 141.6
E: pm yoga
12:00 Cafe Rio salad of deliciousness
4:00 banana
7:30 bowl of cereal with almond milk
9:00 few chips and hummus, a banana
12:00 bowl of cereal with almond milk

Desperation.

I ate SO MUCH today.  Again.  I think it's a desperate attempt to gain energy from some source, as it's clearly not coming from sleep, as it should.

Today:
S: 4.5
W: 143
E: n/a
Food: 4 bananas, fry bread, lentil soup, samosa wrap, marshmallows, walnuts and raisins, 2 completos, 16 oz. of Ben and Jerry's strawberry cheesecake ice cream.

Last of the big binges.

I binged again today and tonight.  I will stop with help from my Heavenly Father.  I can't afford to do things that compromise my health, because that compromises my ability to serve.  Tonight I couldn't really do much to serve in the temple because I have this awful cough.  Need to get better so I can serve.  I need to become who I am physically as well as mentally and spiritually.

Today:
S: 5 hours
W: 141.2
E: n/a
12:00 2 bowls of pumpkin soup, 3-4 sweet potato rolls, several pumpkin cookies, a banana
4:00 banana
7:00 chicken noodle soup, lots of pumpkin cookies, chips and hummus