Today I had an interview with President Mackey to renew my temple recommend. As we were talking about the Atonement, he said that the Atonement is not just for cleansing us of sin, but that it also empowers us, and that we need to make sure that we are availing ourselves of both parts of the Atonement.
I'm kind of a do-it-myself sort of girl, but I am learning that that doesn't work. And there are some days (as in every day that I do something good and stop to think about it!) that I look at what I've done, and I just know that I've had Heavenly Father's help in getting everything done. I am so blessed.
Not to be sacreligious, but I feel like ETL is cleansing and empowering too. Elder Bednar teaches about how the body and the spirit are connected and that we need to take good care of our physical bodies. Sister Tanner talked about how we can't feel the Spirit as strongly when we abuse our bodies. I feel better physically and spiritually when I don't eat too much, and when I eat to live.
Today:
W: 139.6
B and L: ayunando
D: banana, spring mix, spinach, tomatoes, chili, palta
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Friday and Saturday entries (Dating Dairy, and Healing)
I went home with Beth, John, Jesse, and Mathis last night, and didn't get home until late, and just got back to Provo tonight, so we'll play catch-up and include both Friday and Saturday's blog posts here:
Friday, April 13th, 2012
DATING DAIRY
Apparently the decision to consciously eat dairy on Wednesday opened a whole bingey can of worms. Because I'd eaten Cassandra's leche asada earlier in the week, I justified eating lots of non-ETL foods on Friday. And I mean lots.
As Natalie said, sometimes you have to go backwards to realize how important it is to you to move forward. Dabbling in dairy is like dating a boy that you like, but that you KNOW is bad for you (DD comes to mind). If you let the idea in, it's hard to get it out. You have to let go, knowing that it's not what you really want. And sometimes you have to make that mistake, or have that experience, to figure out that you really don't want it, that it's just a cheap substitute for what you really want (a truly happy marriage, or a truly healthy body).
I'm not saying that I'll never eat dairy again. My body did surprisingly well on it's junk-food-diet-for-a-day. But I didn't feel my best, and understandably so. Dairy isn't evil, it just isn't for me. Dairy and I were not meant to be.
W: 138.2
E: ess a/a
B: bananas, 2 burritos with potatoes, onions (fried in sausage grease), salsa/ketchup
L: 3-5 cinnamon rolls, cake
D: chips/dip, potato salad, salad
S: tortilla with cheese, dal
HEALING
Today I slept. And slept. And slept. (Like the pioneers walked. And walked. And walked. Only, with the lazy modern-day version). I think my body and mind needed it. I also got some essentials oils from a friend of Mother's and feel like they're already helping to heal my hip/knee issues.
And I came back to eating to live today. Oh, que alivio! Mother is wonderful, and makes it easier with lots of ETL-friendly options, and I appreciate that my family doesn't vocalize their feelings on my lunacy (I mentioned that ETL has helped lupus patients and J. said something diplomatic like that she'll keep that in mind, or fair enough), but it's still a choice. And one I'm GLAD TO MAKE!!!
Today:
W: ? Probably not great, given what I ate yesterday
B/L: green smoothie (canned peaches, banana, spinach), a few tomatoes and onions
D: beets, cauliflower, cabbage, salad with beans, a banana
Friday, April 13th, 2012
DATING DAIRY
Apparently the decision to consciously eat dairy on Wednesday opened a whole bingey can of worms. Because I'd eaten Cassandra's leche asada earlier in the week, I justified eating lots of non-ETL foods on Friday. And I mean lots.
As Natalie said, sometimes you have to go backwards to realize how important it is to you to move forward. Dabbling in dairy is like dating a boy that you like, but that you KNOW is bad for you (DD comes to mind). If you let the idea in, it's hard to get it out. You have to let go, knowing that it's not what you really want. And sometimes you have to make that mistake, or have that experience, to figure out that you really don't want it, that it's just a cheap substitute for what you really want (a truly happy marriage, or a truly healthy body).
I'm not saying that I'll never eat dairy again. My body did surprisingly well on it's junk-food-diet-for-a-day. But I didn't feel my best, and understandably so. Dairy isn't evil, it just isn't for me. Dairy and I were not meant to be.
W: 138.2
E: ess a/a
B: bananas, 2 burritos with potatoes, onions (fried in sausage grease), salsa/ketchup
L: 3-5 cinnamon rolls, cake
D: chips/dip, potato salad, salad
S: tortilla with cheese, dal
HEALING
Today I slept. And slept. And slept. (Like the pioneers walked. And walked. And walked. Only, with the lazy modern-day version). I think my body and mind needed it. I also got some essentials oils from a friend of Mother's and feel like they're already helping to heal my hip/knee issues.
And I came back to eating to live today. Oh, que alivio! Mother is wonderful, and makes it easier with lots of ETL-friendly options, and I appreciate that my family doesn't vocalize their feelings on my lunacy (I mentioned that ETL has helped lupus patients and J. said something diplomatic like that she'll keep that in mind, or fair enough), but it's still a choice. And one I'm GLAD TO MAKE!!!
Today:
W: ? Probably not great, given what I ate yesterday
B/L: green smoothie (canned peaches, banana, spinach), a few tomatoes and onions
D: beets, cauliflower, cabbage, salad with beans, a banana
Friday, April 13, 2012
Long day
Not much to say...have been looking into doing more raw foods...don't think I'll ever go 100%, love my beans and lentils too much! Vamos a ver.
W: 138.6
E: pm yoga, helping with tree clean-up
B: green smooothie, banana, bit of rice with onions and peppers
L: banana, lentils
D: salad, sostanza, spaghetti, banana
W: 138.6
E: pm yoga, helping with tree clean-up
B: green smooothie, banana, bit of rice with onions and peppers
L: banana, lentils
D: salad, sostanza, spaghetti, banana
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Feeding the Hungry Heart
That's the title of one of Geneen Roth's books on emotional eating. I learn a lot about myself when I read her books. I don't have a lot of discretionary reading time these days, but I'm trying to recognize why I eat when and what I do, as she advises. This morning I ate a banana and some walnuts, not because I was hungry, but because it was breakfast time.
A couple of hours later, I headed to the kitchen in search of something to eat. I wasn't hungry. Not even a little bit. But I was stressed about homework, and wanted to procrastinate it. I thought about all the things I could eat. And even though some sounded pretty good, I recognized that I was just in search of relief, and that eating wouldn't provide it. Eating when I’m not hungry doesn’t help me. It doesn’t calm my stress and anxiety. It doesn’t fill my lonely heart. It doesn’t get my homework done, my fence fixed, my lawn done, flower gardens planted, or my thesis written. I'm sure that I will stress eat again sooner or later, but I didn't this morning!
Today:
W: 139.4
E: essentrics l/b, pm yoga
B: banana and walnuts (about 8am)
L: banana, apple (about 12pm)
S: raisins and walnuts
D: banana, spring mix and dal, and more dal, and a few spoonfuls of lentils. I could live on those things. And I do (with a lot of greens and fruits and other legumes in the mix!)
A couple of hours later, I headed to the kitchen in search of something to eat. I wasn't hungry. Not even a little bit. But I was stressed about homework, and wanted to procrastinate it. I thought about all the things I could eat. And even though some sounded pretty good, I recognized that I was just in search of relief, and that eating wouldn't provide it. Eating when I’m not hungry doesn’t help me. It doesn’t calm my stress and anxiety. It doesn’t fill my lonely heart. It doesn’t get my homework done, my fence fixed, my lawn done, flower gardens planted, or my thesis written. I'm sure that I will stress eat again sooner or later, but I didn't this morning!
Today:
W: 139.4
E: essentrics l/b, pm yoga
B: banana and walnuts (about 8am)
L: banana, apple (about 12pm)
S: raisins and walnuts
D: banana, spring mix and dal, and more dal, and a few spoonfuls of lentils. I could live on those things. And I do (with a lot of greens and fruits and other legumes in the mix!)
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
What I wouldn't do...
I'd do almost anything for someone else. I've said no to meat since October, and to dairy and eggs since January (although I've eaten breads that I was pretty sure had dairy in them), but today I ate some of Cassandra's leche asada just to please her. (It was delicious, too!:) She was happy, I didn't die, and all is well.
Today:
W: 141.6
E: essentrics a/a,
B: grapple and walnuts (it was at 2:45 pm, so I don't know if it really counts as bkfast, but it was my first meal)
L: spring mix, spinach, tomatoes, palta, mushrooms, chili, banana (about 5pm)
D: 3 bananas, pieces of grapple, a few kernels of popcorn
Today:
W: 141.6
E: essentrics a/a,
B: grapple and walnuts (it was at 2:45 pm, so I don't know if it really counts as bkfast, but it was my first meal)
L: spring mix, spinach, tomatoes, palta, mushrooms, chili, banana (about 5pm)
D: 3 bananas, pieces of grapple, a few kernels of popcorn
Spring Break, baby!
I went to the temple early with Beth, Rachel, Asael and Michael. Came home and ate too much to try to stay awake to be alert enough to go on campus to study with Katie. It turned out it was her birthday! So we didn't meet up. I stayed home and read and slept and read and slept...it was glorious! So then I ate too much again. And again after fhe. But it's spring break. What are you going to do?!
Today:
W: 137.4
E: n/a
B: banana, walnuts, chili, 2 tortillas with peanut butter and honey, and apple, and a couple of carrots
L: big salad, 1/2 batch of peanut butter popcorn
D: chili, banana, 2 tortillas with peanut butter and honey
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Easter
I have thought more about Easter this year than in years past. Probably because I gave a talk on it in Sacrament Meeting today. (During which I said "um" at least 37 times, according to Amy's count during the second half of my talk...Didn't even realize that I do it. Something to work on :) I am SO ETERNALLY GRATEFUL for my Savior, Jesus Christ. Thanks to Him, and His incomparable sacrifice, I will see my loved ones again. I can change and become more like Him. I can return to Him.
Today:
W: 137.2
E: walk with Amy, bike ride to Laura's and back
B and L: ayunando
D: spring mix, spinach, tomatoes, mushrooms, palta, chili, banana, peanut butter
S: pb, some peanut butter popcorn, a banana
Today:
W: 137.2
E: walk with Amy, bike ride to Laura's and back
B and L: ayunando
D: spring mix, spinach, tomatoes, mushrooms, palta, chili, banana, peanut butter
S: pb, some peanut butter popcorn, a banana
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