Help!

I tried eating to stay awake again today. It just made me overly full.  I need to get more sleep, and to not go skating with 23 wild waheenies!  Luckily, that second one only happens every once in a while.
I'll try being sane again tomorrow.

Today:
S: 6 hours
W: 146.2
E: essentrics arms section only
12:00 grapes
5:00 chili, chips, grapes, banana and walnuts
6:00 an entire package (24) of cookies
7:00 5 pumpkin candies...decided to be done.
8:30 pigs in a blanket at Megan's party.

Something's gotta give!

I can't seem to stop binging!  I did pretty well until Beth, Spencer and I went out for sushi.  19 rolls?! Oh, yes, we did.  Can't breathe.
And I've started getting shooting pains again. Need to stop, and say "No, just no!" (Speaking of Taylor, she's coming to SLC on June 1st!) We're totally going!

Today:
S: 6 hours
W: 141.2
E: ess l/b
12:00 spring mix, tomatoes, onions, mushrooms, chili
3:50 grapes
8:00 LOTs of sushi
10:00 candy mallow pumpkins

Naughty Jo.

My friend Brooke posted the following quote on fb tonight: "Obedience is the path to freedom." James E Faust.

I have not been obedient to what I know I need to be doing for my body. I need less food and more sleep. So I'm going to finish this post and go to sleep!  And make a more concerted effort not to eat too much tomorrow!

Today:
S: 7 hours
W: 137
E: essentrics a/a
6:30 banana, walnuts, and lots of stay-awake-to-study caramels.
11:30 spring mix, tomatoes, onions, mushrooms
3:40 grapes
7:00 bowl of granola with almond milk
7:40 ginger cookies
8:00 pumpkin muffin
9:00 chips and chili
9:30 2 hot dogs with bun, j-dawg and fry sauce, and 2 plain...Yes, I feel sick.

Food hangover.

I felt awful today.  I gained 7 pounds in one day because I totally binged yesterday.  My body was achey, and I was exhausted and felt empty and tight in the chest, and inchada everywhere else.  Not fun.  I took it easy food-wise today.

One of the talks in sacrament meeting was about taking care of our bodies. I totally needed to be reminded of that again.  I'm grateful for repentance.

Today:
S: 7 hours?
W: 141
E: pm yoga
6:00 dal, a banana
7:20 a bite of pumpkin muffin

Eat to...

Live?  Not today.  I ate to stay awake, to avoid talking to people, etc.  I ate SOOOO much. From eating rats and cookies for breakfast, through an open house and 2 Halloween parties, I have been eating the entire day.  I'm not even going to try to list everything.

Today:
S: 5 hours
W: 134.4
E: n/a

LOTS of food.

Strong enough to say NO.

Tonight I ate 2 pieces of cheese pizza.  They were ok, but not fantastic. And I went to Macey's for tp and rat fixings, and bought cookies and butterscotch chips.  I was going to binge, but I didn't even want to.  Not even a little, not at all.  So I didn't.  Maybe the combination of nourishing my body with ETL foods, not feeling like I have to say no to anything, and JA's calming influence are helping me realize that just because I CAN say yes, doesn't mean I HAVE to.

Today:
S: 5 hours
W: 132.8
7:30 walnuts and raisins
12:00 spring mix with chili, mushrooms, and tomatoes, a banana
3:30 grapes
5:00 bowl of granola with almond milk, piece of bread with pb and honey, a banana
8:30 two pieces of cheese pizza
10:30 4 cookies

Thursday miracles.

I feel better when I look for the good. So here some of the many mini miracles in my life today:

I only gained .2 pounds from yesterday, even though I ate the taquis and the applesauce yesterday.

I was able to do essentrics this morning, in spite of cansansia.

I have glasses to wear so that I can see, even when I can't wear my contacts.
I have a great team at school.  They're funny and hard-working and good.
My kids are So. Dang. Funny.  Especially Little R.
The temple is amazing. God loves us so much.
Got 3 hours of thesis work in, in spite of all the things I had going on today.
My boy admitted that he wants to hold my hand, and he's coming to visit soon!
And Taylor has still got my back in describing every possible relationship emotion: Dust off your highest hopes!

Today:

S: 5.5

W: 134.6

E: essentrics l/b
I didn't eat breakfast because I wasn't hungry.  Amazing how simple that is, and how hard it is to live sometimes.
12:00 spring mix, fiesta mix, banana
3:30 grapes