Joyful day. Not anything out of the ordinary, but I had some of those glimpses of REALITY that make me so happy. Love my job! And I made a mini-batch of pb popcorn instead of a whole one. And I didn't finish the chips and chili that J and J left behind. I put it away! I'm learning! :)
Today:
W: 139.2 (yep, that's +4 pounds...binges do that!)
B and L: green smoothie
D: left over bindi aloo and rice, 2 bananas, walnuts, grapes
S: bowl of peanut butter popcorn, banana, some chips and chili
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Love is hope
I had a pretty good day. Good run with Cassandra, after some essentrics. School went well, and afterwards I did some grocery shopping and the four of us went to India Palace to celebrate Amy's year of freedom! I binged on hummus and Once Upon A Time after we got home. But I was reminded in the show (I'm all caught up now!) that LOVE IS HOPE. I have hope that tomorrow will be even better. I have hope that someday I'll really get over my binge eating habits. Se que el Senor me ama, y eso me da esperanza tambien.
Today:
W: 135.2
E: 2 mile run (about 30 minutes...need to go faster!), essentrics l/b, pm yoga
B and L: green smoothie
D: banana, raisins, bindi aloo
S: nuts and rasins, lots of carrots and two whole packages of hummus! Totally not mindful eating.
Today:
W: 135.2
E: 2 mile run (about 30 minutes...need to go faster!), essentrics l/b, pm yoga
B and L: green smoothie
D: banana, raisins, bindi aloo
S: nuts and rasins, lots of carrots and two whole packages of hummus! Totally not mindful eating.
Monday, March 5, 2012
I really can't believe it myself!
I did essentrics and went running before weighing in this morning. It felt SO GOOD TO MOVE!!! And then when I weighed in, I weighed 135.2! I thought I was at about 137. Happy surprise! :) The best part, though, wasn't the weight loss (I didn't eat lunch yesterday, and I did eat a lot tonight, so I wouldn't be surprised if I subir again tomorrow) but how I felt. I felt energetic and full of life and happiness and love, all because I'd taken the time to take care of my body. Cassy wants to go running with me, so we're going at 6:30 tomorrow.
Today:
W: 135.2
E: 23 minute 1.85 mile run, essentrics arms and abs
B: green smoothie
L: green smoothie
S: banana, pb
D: black beans, tomatoes, corn and spices, banana, apple, whole wheat tortilla with refried beans
Today:
W: 135.2
E: 23 minute 1.85 mile run, essentrics arms and abs
B: green smoothie
L: green smoothie
S: banana, pb
D: black beans, tomatoes, corn and spices, banana, apple, whole wheat tortilla with refried beans
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Love me my Sundays (J.R., that one's for you!)
I don't know why, but every time that Beth is mad, I automatically assume that she's mad at me. Both Cassandra and Amy told me that it's not my fault or my responsibility how she acts/reacts, but I still blame myself. Beth came upstairs and asked if we could talk, and she wasn't mad at me, just hurting, and that's how she shows her pain. I love her. And Amy. And Cassandra. I'm pretty darn blessed all around.
I'm also pretty darn spacey all around! In spite of agreeing to help with food for Break the Fast, and in spite of Joseph's dad saying something about fasting last night, I forgot about Fast Sunday! I ate breakfast, remembered and skipped lunch, but ate at 5. Jason said that they took the 24 hour part out of Gospel Principles, but I didn't make the 2 meals part either. Good thing that there's another Sunday in a week! I was still blessed with an outpouring of the Spirit and lots of things to think about and do. Bendiciones.
Today:
W: 137.2
E: pm yoga
B: banana and walnuts
L: n/a
D: salad at Break the Fast, pasta with basil and tomato, bread with olive oil, vinegar and basil.
S: banana and plain popcorn
I'm also pretty darn spacey all around! In spite of agreeing to help with food for Break the Fast, and in spite of Joseph's dad saying something about fasting last night, I forgot about Fast Sunday! I ate breakfast, remembered and skipped lunch, but ate at 5. Jason said that they took the 24 hour part out of Gospel Principles, but I didn't make the 2 meals part either. Good thing that there's another Sunday in a week! I was still blessed with an outpouring of the Spirit and lots of things to think about and do. Bendiciones.
Today:
W: 137.2
E: pm yoga
B: banana and walnuts
L: n/a
D: salad at Break the Fast, pasta with basil and tomato, bread with olive oil, vinegar and basil.
S: banana and plain popcorn
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Courage and Sacrifice
On Friday we had our Kinnect dance assembly and classes. My class was in Julianna's room, and I noticed one of her quotes: Courage is the strength to try something new.
The something new that I need to be more courageous about is getting enough sleep. I sure didn't last night. But in spite of that and eating hummus, todavia baje de peso.
Other things I need to have courage about: loving people for who they are/trying to see them for who they really are, doing my thesis, letting myself be me with people, especially boys.
"Great power requires great sacrifice," is a Once Upon a Time quote. I need to live up to my privileges. That does and will require sacrifice.
Today:
W: 137.2
E: pm yoga (didn't do it last night!)
B: n/a
L: banana, Red Robin salad: greens, tomato, palta, olive (which Mathis said! brilliant child!)
S: oranges, bananas, pb
D: 2 fried taco shells, refried beans, lettuce, tomatoes, olives, applesauce
S: banana, pb, few carrots with hummus
Friday, March 2, 2012
Sharing!
I LOVE having Cassy in our home! She's so enthusiastic and happy and loving. I got to google chat with Hermana Luz and Hermana Ana also. Hna Luz said that she hopes that God blesses me with many blessings (sounds so much better in Spanish) because I'm helping Cassandra. I told her that I already have my blessings because she's here! And it's true. It's been fun to watch her interact with Amy and Beth too. LOVE my girls! And Mathis, John and Jesse are here (I'm doing homework, can't you tell?) and Cassy's learning sign language from Mathis! I love sharing languages, laughs, home, etc.
During row party today at lunch, J.C. wanted to try my green smoothie. He's tasted one before and loves them! So 4/5 of the kids who came up for lunch tried it. J.C. has suggested before that we make them together for a class party. Um, let me think about that...let my kids MAKE something that is GOOD for them and tastes delicious?! Of course! They've earned their points for a party, and are well on their way to earning a treat. Maybe I'll suggest that they wait until the 16th so that we can have green smoothies to celebrate St. Patrick's Day! I love sharing the things that I love with people that I love.
I've noticed that I am less prone to stress eating when I'm feeling connected to people. If I've spent real time talking to a real person, I don't need to try to fill my heart with food (it never works, by the way).
Today:
W:138.2
B and L: green smoothie. I've been making them a little bigger these days and taking almost a quart for lunch and drinking what ever doesn't fit for breakfast. Works wonderfully! I also made my first banana/kiwi green smoothie. Good stuff! And the kids liked it too!
S: cherry tomatoes and carrot sticks
D: spinach, spring mix, canned corn, tomatoes and black beans, spices (cumin, onion, garlic and chili powder), banana
S: most of two mandarin oranges (shared 2-3 pieces with Mathis!)
S: another orange, hummus, some of Cassy's yummy lime chips, a banana
During row party today at lunch, J.C. wanted to try my green smoothie. He's tasted one before and loves them! So 4/5 of the kids who came up for lunch tried it. J.C. has suggested before that we make them together for a class party. Um, let me think about that...let my kids MAKE something that is GOOD for them and tastes delicious?! Of course! They've earned their points for a party, and are well on their way to earning a treat. Maybe I'll suggest that they wait until the 16th so that we can have green smoothies to celebrate St. Patrick's Day! I love sharing the things that I love with people that I love.
I've noticed that I am less prone to stress eating when I'm feeling connected to people. If I've spent real time talking to a real person, I don't need to try to fill my heart with food (it never works, by the way).
Today:
W:138.2
B and L: green smoothie. I've been making them a little bigger these days and taking almost a quart for lunch and drinking what ever doesn't fit for breakfast. Works wonderfully! I also made my first banana/kiwi green smoothie. Good stuff! And the kids liked it too!
S: cherry tomatoes and carrot sticks
D: spinach, spring mix, canned corn, tomatoes and black beans, spices (cumin, onion, garlic and chili powder), banana
S: most of two mandarin oranges (shared 2-3 pieces with Mathis!)
S: another orange, hummus, some of Cassy's yummy lime chips, a banana
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Cansada, pero feliz!
Cassandra's plane didn't arrive until after 3am. By the time we'd gotten her suitcase, driven by temple square, come home and I'd done yoga and gotten in bed, it was after 5am. I woke up 2 hours later, and was so disoriented that I was trying to look at the calendar to figure out if I needed to get ready for school yet or not, or if there was school today!
I made it to school, and in spite of being noise-sensitive and super cansada, I made it through just fine. I considered contacting Stefinee to postpone our appointment, but went anyway. Amy drove Cassy and I up to campus and she read her book while Cassy explored, and I met with Stefinee. I was on the right track with my outline...just have A TON of reading and writing to do now. La Cassandra es tan buena! I was a little worried that she would expect me to take care of her all the time...I wish I could more, but I'm glad that she's adventurous and self-sufficient. She went wandering around campus all by herself.
After my meeting, we met up and got a book from the library for my thesis reading, and then ran into John and Jesse and Mathis on the way back to the car. LOVE my family! When he recognized me, Mathis did his adorable little happy dance. And he gave all three of us kisses.:)
I got to talk to Beth for a little while while Cassy talked to the Maka, and then the three of us (Beth, Cassy, and I) went to Allens. I made marshmellow popcorn and ate hummus and carrots while talking to Cassy who ate some of the popcorn, and we both had our aguita caliente. I love spending time with Cassy...love speaking Spanish and really getting to know her. She says I'm the same as I was on the mission (de vista y de ser).
I think it's interesting that I'm so tired that I can't even think about hunger. I ate three times today, but the predominant feeling in my body now is cansansia, no hambre. La Cassy me dijo que estoy flaquita, y que me ve bien. Ya le conte de mi dieta. I love how straightforward Chileans are! And that I can be that way too without worrying about being judged or mocked.
Today:
140.6
pm yoga
B/L: green smoothie
D: carrots and hummus
I made it to school, and in spite of being noise-sensitive and super cansada, I made it through just fine. I considered contacting Stefinee to postpone our appointment, but went anyway. Amy drove Cassy and I up to campus and she read her book while Cassy explored, and I met with Stefinee. I was on the right track with my outline...just have A TON of reading and writing to do now. La Cassandra es tan buena! I was a little worried that she would expect me to take care of her all the time...I wish I could more, but I'm glad that she's adventurous and self-sufficient. She went wandering around campus all by herself.
After my meeting, we met up and got a book from the library for my thesis reading, and then ran into John and Jesse and Mathis on the way back to the car. LOVE my family! When he recognized me, Mathis did his adorable little happy dance. And he gave all three of us kisses.:)
I got to talk to Beth for a little while while Cassy talked to the Maka, and then the three of us (Beth, Cassy, and I) went to Allens. I made marshmellow popcorn and ate hummus and carrots while talking to Cassy who ate some of the popcorn, and we both had our aguita caliente. I love spending time with Cassy...love speaking Spanish and really getting to know her. She says I'm the same as I was on the mission (de vista y de ser).
I think it's interesting that I'm so tired that I can't even think about hunger. I ate three times today, but the predominant feeling in my body now is cansansia, no hambre. La Cassy me dijo que estoy flaquita, y que me ve bien. Ya le conte de mi dieta. I love how straightforward Chileans are! And that I can be that way too without worrying about being judged or mocked.
Today:
140.6
pm yoga
B/L: green smoothie
D: carrots and hummus
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