Wednesday night habits.

I made it through class without eating...and came home and ate. A lot.  The end.


Today:
W: 137.8
E: 15 minute run, pm yoga
B: banana and walnuts
L: salad with palta, chili, etc.
D: green smoothie
S: 2 pieces of bread with pb and honey, 1 tortilla with refried beans and salsa.

Sunshine

The last few days, I've been able to go outside without a sweater for afternoon recess.  SO LOVELY.  Lizzie told me that she has a month-to-month gym pass with Gold's that's only $10/month.  I'm tempted to get one, but will probably wait until it's really cold or dark (October?) to do it.

Sunlight makes me happy, more energetic, kinder, more grateful, more likely to eat well and exercise.  Bring on the summer! :)

Today:
W: 138.8
E: pm yoga
B: banana and nuts
L: fiesta mix, orange
D: 2 paltas, 2 pieces of rye bread, 2 bananas
S: green smoothie (banana, peach, coconut milk, spinach)
S: orange tea...tastes like an orange roll, but vegan, fat and sugar free.

I did NOT eat a batch of pb popcorn, or anything after 7pm...may try the Leangains way of not eating 'til noon.  I haven't been hungry in the mornings.  But I will eat if I am!

Sleep

I read in a magazine this weekend (Woman's World) that when we don't get enough sleep, our metabolism is damaged and our insulin and stress hormones rise.  (Don't worry, grad school professors, all your hard work is paying off...I wanted to know what their sources were!) I believe it.  I need to get more sleep, more consistently.

Last night I went to bed at 10:30 and meant to get up at 5.  Didn't happen!  I slept for 8 hours on a non-weekend night!  However, it's 11:40 now, and I won't be in bed before midnight.  But I can get 6 hours in (was at least strong enough not to watch a movie, even though I watched the latest episode of Once Upon a Time) if I am in bed by then.  One day at a time!

Today:
W: 138.8
E: pm yoga
B: walnuts and banana
L: salsa salad and an orange
D: bread with palta, green smoothie (strawberries and coconut milk...delicious!)
S: 2 pieces of bread with peanut butter and honey

God expects us to change.

In Sunday School today, we were talking about the differences in how God works and how Satan works. One of the ideas that was brought up was that Satan doesn't expect us to change, but God does expect us to change, and expects us to work at it.  Repentance is so important.  Someone today defined repentance as striving to change.  I guess I'm repenting then! :)  I love the gospel and am so blessed by it.

One thing that I need to change is how I treat food and my body.  I've been using food as an escape.  We also talked about this...how Satan doesn't want us to feel.  Paying attention to and taking care of my body helps me be more in tune with the Spirit.

I fasted today (totally missed Fast Sunday last week!) and felt so good.  And I weighed in at 5 pounds less this morning than I did yesterday morning.  All that food I've been binging on is making it's way out.  I'm excited for a new day, a new week to keep going, keep trying, keep changing.

Another thing that I need to change is how I treat people.  I think that I'm good at making one person feel good or loved or cared about, but when I'm in a group of more than that, I feel like I tend to ignore someone or lots of someones in order to pay attention to the one.  I need to learn how to balance that.

Today:
W: 140.6
E: pm yoga
B and L: fasting
D: 2 bowls of a yummy concoction of brown rice, quinoa, corn, olives, peas, kidney, black and refried beans, 1 banana

10 pounds

Just so you know, it is physically possible to gain 10 pounds in 4 days.  I just did it.  On Tuesday morning, I weighed in at 135.2.  This morning I weighed in at 145.4.  I've been on a major binge, and know that I'll go back down as soon as I stop trying to fix my emotional and stress issues with food. I did better today.  I'm not worried, not mad at myself, just need to work on taking care of the stress so that I'm not compounding it with health issues too.

Today:
W: 145.4
E: pm yoga
B: n/a
L: banana with walnuts
D: banana, spinach, spring mix, beans, mushrooms, tomatoes, palta.  Delicious.

Binge, baby, binge

I've been using food to stay awake, to destress, and distract.  It works for the staying awake and the distracting, but it doesn't lessen the stress, and it doesn't make me feel better.  I was doing so well!  Down to 135.2!  Ha!  I think more sleep would definitely help.

Today:
W: 143.2
E: pm yoga
B: hot water with lemon
L: spinach, spring mix, black beans, corn, salsa, spices, banana, walnuts
D: bananas, 3 pieces of bread with pb and honey, 1 piece of bread with palta!!! :)
S: hummus, chips

Eating does not equal sleeping.

Apparently I'm trying to eat enough to compensate for my lack of sleep.  Too bad it doesn't work that way!

Today:
W: 139.8
E: 17 minute walk/run, pm yoga
B: banana and nuts
L: green smoothie
D: beans, bananas, bread with peanut butter and honey
S: more beans, chips, banana